Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Let it Be
When stuff like this happens remember, this is how it's supposed to be, how God wanted it to be, it may not make sense to us now, but in the end it will be perfectly clear.
Many times I've wondered why God lets this happen and many times my questions have gone unanswered, Many times I've wondered why we go on, but I know that we can't give up, that there is a reason. You just have to stay strong.
God comforts those that go to him, he doesn't turn anyone away, I know that for sure.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
not some shy question,
and not with fears
for its reputation!
I say these things disinterestedly.
Accept them in kind.
Love is a madman, working his wild schemes, tearing off his clothes,
running through the mountains, drinking poison,
and now quietly choosing annihilation.
A tiny spider tries to wrap an enormous wasp.
Think of the spiderweb woven across the cave
where Muhammad slept!
There are love stories,
and there is obliteration into love.
You've been walking the ocean's edge,
holding up your robes to keep them dry.
You must dive naked under and deeper under,
a thousand times deeper!
Love flows down!!
The ground submits to the sky and suffers
what comes.
Tell me, is the earth worse
for giving in like that?
Don't put blankets over the drum!
Open completely.
Let your spirit-ear listen to the green dome's passionate murmur.
Let the cords of your robe be untied.
Shiver in this new love beyond all above and below.
The sun rises, but which way
does night go?
I have no more words. Let soul speak with the silent
articulation of a face.
--Rumi
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Subway Mistake
Sitting on the subway
waiting for the time
Sitting on the subway
Wish that I would die
The out of no where
like a comet in the sky
You sit beside me
I have to wonder why
Stop by stop the train goes on
Smiles and glances fill the car
Stop by stop the train goes on
I hope that she is going far
After all the silence
A conversation starts
Nothing but smiles
The look in her eyes
Fills my heart is calm
The smell of her hair
All of these thing smash my senses like a bomb
And as all thing look up
The train it stops
I look up and see Yorkdale
and frown inside
Stand up
Look back
One last smile
Through the window as the car goes on
And let it roll away.
Why didn't I just stay on
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Fly Far away
Friday, September 25, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Sunbeam
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
New Inspiration
Friday, September 4, 2009
My Hour Glass
Foot steps walking in the other direction
People waving goodbye
Suns setting and moons rising
All as the sand falls in my hour glass
Waking up in the middle of the night
What I dream is a lie
Stare out at the stars shining
All as the sand falls in my hour glass
In the dim light the plane leaves
I can't help but to cry
Just to know that you are leaving
All as the sand falls in my hour glass
Time moves in slo-motion
And as the day go by
I am only wishing
All as the sand falls in my hour glass
It hurts me loving you
As I look up at the sky
I am left wondering
All as the sand falls in my hour glass
Will I ever get you back
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Fading Fire
And as the fire fades away
I know that you must go
I just want one more hug
Before your gone
I want you to stay
But it's selfish of me
And how would I know
If you felt the same
But what can I say
I don't know what to do
I've never fallen so hard
I need you down here with me
To make you feel this way
I would walk a thousand miles
Climb the highest mountain
Swim the deepest sea
And as the Fire fades away
I want you to stay
But what can I say
To make you feel this way
as the Fire fades away
I want you to stay
But what can I say
To make you feel this way
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
The Last Forgiveness
Just finished this one, I'm not sure if I'm happy with it, or just horribly sleepy
Close your Eyes
shut you ears
open your mind
see the world through me
And the whole world holds its breath
and all eyes turn to the sky
to the heavenly beings on high
falling slowly to the sand
on this the last day
as the dawn finally break
sun seeps through my drape
I will be set free
And the whole world holds its breath
and all eyes turn to the sky
to the heavenly beings on high
falling slowly to the sand
On that the last day
the four winds blow
from the corners, bringing snow
A flurry from thee
And the whole world holds its breath
and all eyes turn to the sky
to the heavenly beings on high
falling slowly to the sand
On that the last day
their beat will seize
they will wish for peace
And thats all they can ask for
And the whole world holds its breath
and all eyes turn to the sky
to the heavenly beings on high
falling slowly to the sand
And on the last day
The Lord look on his world
And a single tear fell
and a single word rose
Forgiveness
And the whole world holds its breath
and all eyes turn to the sky
to the holy being on high
Showering us with love
Acid Rain
Fall
Falls the Acid Rain
It burns my veins
It hides my shame
and fall
Falls the Acid Rain
And I look out over the city while it sleeps
and I cry out why
Why do you let the strong rule the weak
Why do you mock the homeless
poison the hungry
Then I look up to the sky and cry
(and cry)
Should I let them live or die
(or die)
and then
Fall
Falls the Acid Rain
It burns my veins
It hides my shame
and fall
Falls the Acid Rain
And when the people wake up
when they see the world around you
They will all come together
and call out to me to save them
and I will say, no
Fall
Falls the Acid Rain
It burns my veins
It hides my shame
and fall
Falls the Acid Rain
Fall
Falls the Acid Rain
It burns my veins
It hides my shame
and fall
Falls the Acid Rain
You'd better get your raincoat
It's raining
Monday, August 31, 2009
Tragic Youth
Once upon a time there was a boy
who loved a girl
And they were happy
or so he thought
Once upon a time there was a girl
who was with a boy
but she couldn't commit
so she lied
Once there was a boy
who learned the truth
that it was a lie
a part of him died
Once there was a girl
who told the truth
that felt the burden rise
and so she left
There was a boy
who hated himself
needed to find relief
so cut himself
There was a girl
Who once knew love
now only knows list
wonders where he is
A boy
who couldn't take it
let himself go
and is now with her again
A girl
Who read the paper
while feeding her son
from the man who doesn't love her
Learn from them
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Boy to Man
There once was a young boy
who lived with his family, in there tiny house,
in their small community
he loved and he laughed and he played and sang
There once was a teenager
who still lived with his family,even though they were "lame",
and he was always at his girlfriends house
he loved and laughed and played
There once was a young man
who visited his family every now and then,
when ever he had the time
he loved and he laughed
There once was a middle aged men
who rarely visited of his family, for he was far to busy,
and the retirement home smelled
he loved
There once was a old man
who lived by himself, because his children never visited,
who missed his family
he didn't love, laugh, play, or sing
Love them while you have them
Friday, August 28, 2009
Numba 3
Standing on the water tower
look out over the city
See the windows glow
I wonder if they know
Is there anyone out there
Is anyone watching me
Is there anyone out there
Will any one set me free
Walking on the river bridge
See the warm water
One more step and there I go
Down to the waters flow
Is there anyone out there
Will anyone wake this dream
Is there anyone out there
Is anyone going to save me
and when you free me
when you save me
will you let me fly
fly high into the sky
so high into the sky
Is there anyone out there
Is there anyone
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Numba 2
And the scary part is
we've been friends for so long
we know each other
when will this go wrong
When You drive me craazy
round in circles I go
Do I want to stop
I doon't know
Craazy, for you
yes you, yea you
And the best part is
I've known you my whole life
Don't cha feel
that this is perfectly right
'cause You drive me craaaazy
round in circles I go
Do I want to stop
I don't know
Craazy, for you
yes you, only you
But when you say
maybe we could just be friends
Do you think that
my heart ever will mend
But when you say
maybe we could just be friends
Do you think that
my heart ever will mend
'Cause you drive me craaazy
Round in circles I go
Do I want to stop
the answer will always be no
CRAAAAZY, CRAAAAZY
for you crazy fooor you.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Nothing changes too much, unfortunatly
And as the tear drips from my eye
and as the sweat streaks down my brow
and as the blood trickles from my cut
I know you could never understand
And as your words pierce my heart
and as there glares tear my soul
and as her laugh slams my ears
I know you could never understand
For how could one so beautiful
feel what I feel
and how could one so wise
feel the way I feel
and how could on so liked
feel how I feel
Maybe one day the ugliest duckling
will turn into a swan
maybe one day the butterfly
will come out of it'd cocoon
and fly away to find somewhere else
thank you Insomnia, laced with sorrow
God bless Insomnia
so for the past three of four day's I haven't been able to fall asleep, and since I got my mac it's become a lot easier to write stuff down, so while I'm lying there trying to get to sleep, ideas for songs fall into my head, so here's one of them.
Fingers fly
Ideas splash against the page
set my creativity free
looking back
where did this come from
when did that get in side of me
writing out your love
writing out your life
writing out your song
now the music
what to do
I gotta show you I'm no fool
has to be happy
upbeat, and rhythmical
has to be as perfect as you
Writing out you love now
writing out your life
writing our how great your are
writing out your song
My fingers flying
this time on the strings
let the music take you
close your eyes
take a breath
and see your self like I do
Writing out your love, yea
writing out your life
Writing out your love, yea yea
I've written out your song
don't have music for it mind you, but at least I'm half way there
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Work in progress...I think
Shrieking steel
Tearing Flesh
All with the flick of the wrist
Floating algae
Molding upholstery
Water logged corpse
All with the press of the foot
Driving off into the darkness
Don't know where I'm goin
Driving off into the darkness
Don't think I'll be slowin
Friday, August 14, 2009
Thursday, August 6, 2009
staring at your picture.
wishing hopeing waiting, all in vain
what are the chances that you would be interested in me
why would you spend your time with someone like me
why would you even think of someone like me
why the hell does this always happen
why does my head do this to me
what did I ever do to it
as I sit here wasteing the hours
counting them
ones that could have been spent with her
watching them
trickling down the hour glass
dripping down to the massive mound of wasted time
and theres nothing I can do
nothnig but sit here an write it all out
and even then it barely helps
I think I need a hug
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Respond to me?
when thinking about someone makes you feel sick to your stomache
but she's all you can think about
when you just want all these hopeless thoughts to leave you alone
but theses thought are all thats keeping you same
what can you do when someone ignores you
and it tears you up inside
is there even anything I can do?
Monday, August 3, 2009
DARN
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
...lyrics?
Monday, July 20, 2009
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
i don't really feel all that different
this summer I am going to a) find a job I enjoy (I know that work is work, but....shut up)
b) start cooking, and printing off recipes from the internet
c) buy Anberlin Cd(s)
d) stay connected with friends going all around the globe
e) try to avoid burning toooo much
f) learn more songs for guitar, possibly a piano or two
g) work out
Well slightly small list made, time to see how it works out
Friday, June 12, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Ok?
and the only reason that some one else wouldn't attempt to believe in God is because he didn't predestine him to...
Ok?
and God will never turn anyone away that tries to come to him...
Ok?
and we are not supposed to try to figure out if we have been predestined, we are just to believe and try to follow Jesus...
Ok?
So then if we are not supposed to question whether or not God predestined us, we are just supposed to believe and follow, then wouldn't everyone be saved, because God would not turn any one away, and we would all be following and believing, the predestined and the non predestined, then wouldn't everyone go to heaven?
You know what, this is really confusing...
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Probably maybe, should think about college or work after school.
Probably have to start thinking about school too.....hmmm
soo much head stuff..
p.s: I just found this, and it is nothing like my childhood.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ti-9T4kIoxs
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
Work in Progress....I guess
I'm not really a social person, in fact I really don't mind being by my self, in most situations I prefer it, but there is a down side to this. Usually when I am alone, my mind begins to wander, filling my head with all sorts of nonsense, at least I think it's nonsense. Any ways, I start to ponder all sorts of things, whether or not I should do this or that. I think that this isn't really that bad.
What is bad is partially that I don't know how to word what is bad, but it's bad. AAARGH!, stupid words don't come
I have figured out that I am trying to sabotage myself.
I think I have anger issues, but I never show them, does that still mean I have them?
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
Hmmm
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Resolution
Whizzing lights
buzzing sounds
Whirls around,
and through me
I start drifting
far away
to when what was is,
and when what is,
is not yet
I see all sorts of wonderful things
reliving the times of yester-year
I see time of joy
of time with friends
where I feel accepted
I see time of closeness
of times with just me and one other
where I feel loved
I see all sorts of wonderful things
reliving the times of yester-year
I must remember though
that I do not live in yester-year
I live in the now
and it is just as great.