Thursday, August 19, 2010


the more i think the worse it seems, half the time I think to my self why even bother, and the other half I can only think of what it would be like if everything could be perfect, I'm so confused and lonely, but i don't just want an easy way out, I don't just want a quick fix.
I find my self wanting what i can't have, and it makes me sad, because I'll never get what I'm really looking for.

it kinda makes me mad

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

new piercing

Saturday, June 12, 2010

ever have it where you meet up with friends from the past and don't really feel that connection of old friends who haven't seen each other in a long time and want to catch up on all the things that they have missed?

it makes me wonder, is it me who has changed and become a different person that they don't feel connected to,
or did I never really mean as much to them as they meant to me.

I only know one thing, I'm hell'a lonely lately.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

so is this what life's gonna be like?

make a whole bunch of great friends, and theeeen you leave then for college.

then you make more friends, not as many, and then the year is over, and once again they dissappear.

and now I'm at work, am I going to make new friends, only to end up leaving them as well?
what is the point?

Monday, April 12, 2010


After watching Crazy Heart this was stuck in my head, so I put it in my computer, now it's here.

personally I think it sounds to much like country to me, but that might just be me

And through the years I've grown a little

(A little less then I probably should)

And though my time is almost over

(I'd make the best of it if I could)

And though I know you will not take it

(I know and trust you will not split)

And though I've seen the ups and the down

(I hope this song will wipe your frown)

Cause I'm slow dieing In a heart beat

slow dieing as I stood

I know my number will be called soon

and I'll have to leave this neighborhood

Slow dieing In a heart beat

slow dieing as the day

there isn't much that you can do

just sit right there and pray

Monday, April 5, 2010

Our Eternity
From across a land of sea
you have come to me.
You learn to talk, but not see.
I know I'm not free
but with you, we soon will be.

I think that everythign I write sounds that same, and that I can only write love song's/poems, or sad ones, and everythgin else just sounds awful.
oh well C'est la vie

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I feel like my old self again.
unless my I was my old self all this time,
unless my old self is really my new self in disguise,
but if I was my old self the whole time, then who was the other self,
but if my old self is really my new self in disguise, then who was it hiding from,
hmmmmm, interesting....