Work in Progress....I guess

I think I'm getting tired of my own charade, tired of showing the world "me". I want desperately to really be me, but the real me is some one that part of me doesn't want to let out, doesn't want the rive to flow through the dam. I'm not the person that all of you sees everyday, in fact I'm almost the complete opposite.

I'm not really a social person, in fact I really don't mind being by my self, in most situations I prefer it, but there is a down side to this. Usually when I am alone, my mind begins to wander, filling my head with all sorts of nonsense, at least I think it's nonsense. Any ways, I start to ponder all sorts of things, whether or not I should do this or that. I think that this isn't really that bad.
What is bad is partially that I don't know how to word what is bad, but it's bad. AAARGH!, stupid words don't come

I have figured out that I am trying to sabotage myself.

I think I have anger issues, but I never show them, does that still mean I have them?

I am this close to snapping.

and I fell like i can't let it out b/c i might offend some one, or hurt some one.

it just feels so great

Hmmm

So I got accepted at Georgian for Child and Social Worker, now come the decision on whether I go on with my schooling or if I take my time and work for a while to figure out exactally what I want to do.