The only reason that I am even attempting to believe in God is because he predestined me to....
Ok?
and the only reason that some one else wouldn't attempt to believe in God is because he didn't predestine him to...
Ok?
and God will never turn anyone away that tries to come to him...
Ok?
and we are not supposed to try to figure out if we have been predestined, we are just to believe and try to follow Jesus...
Ok?

So then if we are not supposed to question whether or not God predestined us, we are just supposed to believe and follow, then wouldn't everyone be saved, because God would not turn any one away, and we would all be following and believing, the predestined and the non predestined, then wouldn't everyone go to heaven?

You know what, this is really confusing...

Guitar classes are going well, I can't feel the tips of my fingers. I'm going to start learning more complex songs, should be fun.

So many thing's on my mind right now, Guatemala was Life Changing!
Probably maybe, should think about college or work after school.
Probably have to start thinking about school too.....hmmm
soo much head stuff..


p.s: I just found this, and it is nothing like my childhood.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ti-9T4kIoxs

This just proves my point, just when you start to figure out the pitcher, you get thrown a curve ball

Work in Progress....I guess

I think I'm getting tired of my own charade, tired of showing the world "me". I want desperately to really be me, but the real me is some one that part of me doesn't want to let out, doesn't want the rive to flow through the dam. I'm not the person that all of you sees everyday, in fact I'm almost the complete opposite.

I'm not really a social person, in fact I really don't mind being by my self, in most situations I prefer it, but there is a down side to this. Usually when I am alone, my mind begins to wander, filling my head with all sorts of nonsense, at least I think it's nonsense. Any ways, I start to ponder all sorts of things, whether or not I should do this or that. I think that this isn't really that bad.
What is bad is partially that I don't know how to word what is bad, but it's bad. AAARGH!, stupid words don't come

I have figured out that I am trying to sabotage myself.

I think I have anger issues, but I never show them, does that still mean I have them?

I am this close to snapping.

and I fell like i can't let it out b/c i might offend some one, or hurt some one.

it just feels so great

Hmmm

So I got accepted at Georgian for Child and Social Worker, now come the decision on whether I go on with my schooling or if I take my time and work for a while to figure out exactally what I want to do.