February 28 2010
and as the world shuts her eyes
feel my fingertips caress the skies
I know there is no reason why
but remember I will never lie
February 13 2010
Thats the second time thats happened to me.
I had a dream last night that I was pushed off a cliff
and I fell for a long time, in slow motion
never really hitting the bottom, all the while staring up at the person who pushed me off.
Last time I dreamt something like that, I was pushed into a pool
and after I had floated down to the bottom, I sat there and looked up
as the person who pushed me walked away.
Maybe their visions on the future
because the same thing happened this time as what happened last time.
It's kinda weird to think about where these dreams are coming from.
in closing for today, if I was the sort of person who used vulgar language often
then this last line would be full of it.
February 12 2010
Why do i have to feel
why do feelings have to exist
and why do they always travel in packs?
why can't I just feel happy,
instead of happy, sad, lonely, excited, anxious, and unsure
why can't things in life
just
sometimes be different
why am I finding my self with a strong urge
to place my arms out wide
and welcome the next coming train to the station
and give it one bug final hug
February 10 2010
bad to wish that something wold happen
something that would justify your mood
to give you a reason,
an explanation for your mood
to tell you
"hey it's ok to be sad, you have a reason"
to wish for something you can get through
instead of looking forward
and seeing uncounted for sorrow
What if I dissappeared
left
in the middle of the night
took a plane far far away
What if I left
dissappeared
got in the car
and drove on till I couldn't drive anymore
What if I was gone
forever
didn't come home
started new, else where
would you care?
